Friday the 13th it ends tonight

Its been a few days i last blogged well i`m not a full time blogger

i found that this might be jus a place to let out all my feelings

maybe it shall not be a public blog

a secret place to write all my feelings

i`m pretty emotional ya

haven been feeling well this few days

holiday is here i`m suppose to be happy

but i`m not maybe this is jus my life.

Many things happen this few days too much to say

day went for operation

i only knew when my brother told me

i don`t feel a part of my family at all

i realise that only my family members are worth loving

and life is fragile,sudden

you won`t know what happen so i`ll just live day by day

my life is boring

nothing in this world spite me to live on

maybe this is jus me

my heart is broken

the first time i fell so deep

its been 1mth+ i`m still hanging on

she had a bf behind my back

but i didn`t mind

i did so much and i dun expect returns

i gave in so much

i gave her all my happiness but she just took it away

its like teaching her to fly and she flew away

i regret so much

i left another girl for her and i was stupid

it was a stupid mistake i made

i shouldn`t have trust her

but she is a nice person

maybe she jus doesn`t suit me at all

there`s so much i wanna do with her

so much i wanna tell her

but i don`t think i mean anything to her now

she passes day by day as if nothing happens

i`m begining to hate her

take me away from this sinful place

i wanna go to a faraway place where there is only me

jus me and my love ones

i wanna decide on my life now

i`ll study hard,i`ll make money

i`ll retire with big sum of money

i`ll retire to a thailand village

i`ll have peace

i`ll do my buisness via computers

if theres a will theres a way

i believe in no love now

i`ve been hurt

i`ll leave

bye

theres still so much to say

my life my everything

the world is my stage

i act

i hide my feelings

i shall jus wait for my day to come

i`ll become jus an ordinary boy

i`ll stop all my bad habits

i promise

life is meaningless without a good realation

and in the end you leave the world a better place...

yesterday was a history,

tomorrow is a mystery,

but today was a gift.